It was hillbilly heroin, and it made me awesome at my job. In hindsight, it didn't actually make me better at the job at all. The truth was that it helped me deal with being in a room full of inauthentic, vampiric human beings under fluorescent lights, eating garbage, and never seeing the sun.
PS: Eating an actual grapefruit, especially the white part of the rind, is much more effective than drinking grapefruit juice. Especially if you're taking something orally that destroys most of the drug during first pass metabolism.
Also, the right kind of unwashed bulk poppy seeds can stave off withdrawal.
Ah. This essay brings back memories. lol I loved smoking heroin so much. I loved it so much I got down to 78 pounds and nearly died in the hospital. One of my worst fears was dying sober. Isn't that bizarre? Thank you so much. Great read!
So much of school is pointless unnecessary pain: exclusion, rejection, judgment, feeing superior for no good reason, feeling inferior for no good reason, and even for those whose drug of choice was a package of dates and a kilogram of peanut butter downed in ten minutes, we can all relate.
It was hillbilly heroin, and it made me awesome at my job. In hindsight, it didn't actually make me better at the job at all. The truth was that it helped me deal with being in a room full of inauthentic, vampiric human beings under fluorescent lights, eating garbage, and never seeing the sun.
PS: Eating an actual grapefruit, especially the white part of the rind, is much more effective than drinking grapefruit juice. Especially if you're taking something orally that destroys most of the drug during first pass metabolism.
Also, the right kind of unwashed bulk poppy seeds can stave off withdrawal.
I wish I didn't know shit like this.
Ah. This essay brings back memories. lol I loved smoking heroin so much. I loved it so much I got down to 78 pounds and nearly died in the hospital. One of my worst fears was dying sober. Isn't that bizarre? Thank you so much. Great read!
Eight years sober 🎉
Thank you for sharing your journey, Matt. ❤️
Thanks for reading!
Tooters. All ya need is a good ole Bic. I dismantled hundreds in my day 🙄
Good essay digging deep into it Matt. I loved: this part may not be true—but it’s how I remember it. 🤷🏻♂️
Uniballs are my poison lol thanks for reading, Dee!
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Love you!
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So much of school is pointless unnecessary pain: exclusion, rejection, judgment, feeing superior for no good reason, feeling inferior for no good reason, and even for those whose drug of choice was a package of dates and a kilogram of peanut butter downed in ten minutes, we can all relate.
Thanks for sharing.
That’s the goal (if there is one.) I relish your perspective
Don’t get me started on relish binges…